Honesty and Open

I've been reading a few blogs lately that are being written by friends of mine. I've been hit by their honesty and how openly they write. It made me think again about what I write and how I write it. I'm not very good at writing often in this blog, or really at doing anything consistently. I procrastinate a LOT! I spend so much time doing not a lot, that I find it hard to keep up something that consistently takes time. I'm hoping to change that...starting now.

I don't remember if I've said this before, but I usually process my thoughts and ideas whilst talking to people. Here in the Netherlands I've found it hard to talk to people. I mean I talk to people almost daily, but it usually seems so superficial and I don't feel like I'm getting the same sense of thought process that I was getting in Australia. I think writing in this blog more often and more openly might help with this. It means that what I write might not make much sense, and I might go off on little tangents and that I might repeat myself more often, but I think that's how I usually talk to people. I say things without thinking about them and whilst I'm talking I'll realise things and I'll understand things better. Some of you may have experienced this with me before, but if you haven't, I hope you can understand a bit of what I'm saying.

I want to be an open and honest person about all the things that are going on in my life, not just the physical things, but also the emotional and things that are going on in my head. Sometimes I think that there's nothing going on in my head. I don't mean that in a way that I don't think about things, but I never come to conclusions about things if they're just sitting in my head. I need to say things out loud and to try to explain things for clarity to actually hit me. So I want to try doing that here.

I apologise if this blog then becomes something that you don't want to read, but I hope that you will stay with me as I openly and honestly share with you my life, thoughts, ideas and feelings.