So I've (re)booked my flights back to Australia and in exactly 2 months I fly off into the unknown. Well it's not exactly entirely unknown since I'm heading back to Adelaide, a place that I know and love. It's got me thinking though and I'm not really sure what I'm thinking. My thoughts are bittersweet. I've made the Netherlands my home for the past year and in that time I've made friends, fallen in love with a city and lived. I've had experiences, conversations, laughter, tears, and a whole life that doesn't include Adelaide and all that my life there held. I'm thankful for my time here and I'm really sad to be leaving.
On top of this, I've changed. I've started thinking about what life will be like back in Adelaide, and I've got to the stage where it's sinking in that it will be different. I will have been away for a year, and in that time me, and other people, will have changed. Things that were the norm when I left won't necessarily be the norm any more. I've got a picture in my head of what Adelaide is like and it's a year old. People have moved on, I've moved on. How do I fit back into that? Last time I went back to Australia from living in the Netherlands it was not back into the 'old' life I had, but onto another change and another city. This time I'll be heading right back to where I was and trying to fit my new self into that world. Can I do this?
Another question I've been thinking of is whether I should even try to fit myself back into that life. Things will be different, so should I be trying to live as if they weren't? I don't mean that I won't spend time with my friends, do the things that I love doing and become a totally different person, but maybe I should be looking at this as a new adventure, the next stage in my life, the next change. So what if it's in an 'old' place, it's a place that I love and who says I can't make a new life in an old place?
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